Through the hustle and bustle of life, most of my day is spent on paying attention to all the exterior things in life that tug at my time. There never seems to be enough hours to do all that life demands of me as a mom, wife, friend, writer, speaker, leader, frequent traveler etc.
Through each day, God is working hard to get my attention. He is asking me to look around me and to never forget that my life is His. All that I am and all that I hope to be in the future is His. My every breath and all my days are in His hands not my own.
He is constantly reminding and encouraging me to nurture my heart. To not neglect the most important thing I will do in life, and that is to nurture my heart in connection with my relationship with Him.
He reminds me of my inadequacies without Him. My success is Him.
The quote by Oswald Chambers comes to mind that says, My public worth is determined by my private time with God.
Through my time with God each morning and evening, God gently pours his love into me, as well as gently convicts me of the things He wants me to address in my life that are holding me back from greater intimacy with Him and possible broken relationship with others. This is a guidance time, listening to my leader and friend.
As I have given God full reign over my heart and life, and am choosing daily to deal with issues that hold me back from greater intimacy with Christ, I have actually found who I am, and what i was meant to do in this world. My life has become very clear and all my inadequacies have begun to fade away. Life is no longer about me, which has become a beautiful thing.
Brennan Manning sums this up in his book Abba’s Child.
The recovery of passion begins with the recovery of my true self as the beloved. If I find Christ I find myself, and if I find my true self, I will find Him. This is the goal and purpose of our lives. John did not believe that Jesus was the most important thing; he believed that Jesus was the only thing. For “the disciple Jesus loved”, anything less was not genuine faith.
Are you ready to find your true self as Christ’s beloved?
As you walk through each day, keep in mind that your public worth is fully determined by your private time with God.